First Day of School

It’s the first day of school and I’m up before the sun, hours before any alarms go off, excited about your year ahead and praying for your year ahead. Each year of school brings so many new milestones, from new kinds of math to discoveries about yourself to lessons about people and relationships. As your…

City Management

I manage a city. I manage a city, and I have every job within the city. When things go awry with my children or their friends, or even with kids at school they don’t really know, I am on the other end of the 9-1-1 call. My job is to ask just enough questions to…

Help Me To See

For the last couple of weeks, I’ve been focused on this mantra: God, help me to see what you want me to see. A speaker at a retreat I attended shared that she’s been starting her day that way, and it stuck with me. God, help me to see what you want me to see.…

Forty-Six

When I was younger I used to wonder what life would be like when I was 20 and then 30 and then 40. Although not as often because life is just a little too chaotic, I still sometimes daydream about what life will be like 10 years from now and 20 years from now. I…

Healthy Relationships

You can’t negotiate a healthy relationship with someone who is focused on winning. You can’t negotiate a healthy relationship with someone who isn’t as focused on giving as they are on taking. You can’t negotiate a healthy relationship with someone you can’t trust. You can’t negotiate a healthy relationship with someone who isn’t healthy. Healthy…

One Corner Piece

  Regret and Accountable. These two words have been running around in my head for months. Some days they are louder than others, but their noise is an almost constant hum in the background of my life. I didn't behave inappropriately with someone else, I didn't and don't hide from all the people who might…

Oh Good Lord

I sat with my Mom at lunch today and thought OH GOOD LORD over and over and over again. It's Mother's Day and I wanted us to have a nice lunch with good conversation and then all these things - MomLife - kept happening. The wait time was going to be 45 minutes, someone didn't…

There Is Only One Me

There is only one me. I say it all the time in my head when there’s just too much. I occasionally say it out loud when multiple people are talking to me at the same time. There is only one me. I can only be in one meeting at a time, in one place at…

April Fool’s Birthday Girl

Fourteen years ago, in the middle of the night, I was doing the exact same thing as I am right at this moment: laying in bed with my daughter just a few feet away, marveling about her. Ella was born not long after midnight, on April 1. After all the post-delivery chaos of Apgar scores…